I'm Not Me

I'm not me.
I know what I'm supposed to be,
but I keep acting differently.

This isn't me.
I can't say
why I am this way,
but I wish that it would go away.
I'm not the one I used to be.
I'm not me.

I don't feel the way I did,
I don't act the way I should.
People think I only kid,
and I only wish I could.
This is not me,
this shouldn't be
what people see.

I'm different now
and don't know how
to go back.
How do I regain
the things I lack,
before the pain
turns my world black?

I'm not me,
but I'm trying
my best to deal
with how I feel.
I can't allow
the way I am now
to become too real.
I already know
my fate will seal
if I let go.

I may not be
the real me,
but hopefully
I can possibly
go back to me,

before I turn into something else.